That Crazy Love Book again!

So I am almost finished with chapter 2 now in the Crazy Love book. It has taken me forever to get this far!! I have never realized how true selfish I am, and I dont even mean to be!! God has done so much for me and yet I still question Him! WHO AM I TO QUESTION GOD!!!??? He created, He has the hairs on my head numbered, He knows when I will lay down and when I will get up! I have NO NO NO NO right to ask him why or to question Him about why something is happening the way it is!

A large part of chapter 2 talked about "Justified stress?" When I read this part I was just struck down and completely convicted. I am a constant worry wart! I have gotten better but I still struggle with worrying about the stupidest things. However I struggle with stress alot more than I do worrying! I stress constantly about school!! Are my grades good enough? Did I devote enough time to studying for that test? Am I going to lose my scholarships!? constantly stressing about having too much to do!

Well this is what Chan says about worrying and stressing.....

"Worry imples that we don't quite trust that God is big enough, powerful enough, or loving enough to take care of what's happening in our lives."

"Stress says that the things we are involved in are important enough to merit our impatience, our lack of grace towards others, or our tight grip of control."

OUCH....I have never thought about it that way! I used to sing this song when I was little..."My God is so great so strong and so mighty, THERE IS NOTHING MY GOD CAN NOT DO." If I truly believed that then I would not be worrying or stressing over anything! The first hint of feeling overwhelmed I would give it to the Lord!! But yet what do I do...I hold on to and try and handle it myself until I am about to fall apart and then I give it to God all messed up and out of wack! So often I live my life like it is all about me! My problems, my goals, my whatevers.... When it has never been about me! It is and always has been about God!!

God has put up with us not obeying Him since the beginning! And you know what he still loves us! WOW.... talk about flattering! that is pretty stinking amazing! We live our daily lives most of the time with out even thinking about God! In this movie of GOD'S life we each have a sec in it.... Am I taking my second and living it for God's glory!?? My daily life should not revolve around gaining ANYTHING of this world! Everyday my thought should be What can I do today that will give God the most Glory? At any moment am I ready to meet Jesus? Will I be caught worrying about my silly life or will I be caught glorifying the one who created me and gave me the very breathe I breathe!!